[hi.... yes. I'm here]
I am nervously raising my head, and sheepishly poking my head in the door, half hoping that no one notices my re-entry into the room.
I've thought lots [and lots and lots] about visiting. But once you leave a place, and the longer you stay away, the harder it is to come back.
And then the more ridiculous excuses you make about why you shouldn't.
And you imagine what expectations there are if you do, what people may or may not be waiting for. And you fear that you will never live up to that- it's not worth making a post unless it's a really good one. Or a really impressive one. After all this time, I don't want to disappoint. [as if people are standing waiting with baited breath for what I might say next.....pffft. It's almost laughable when I say it now.]
So fears aside [actually, they are not aside. They still exist. But I choose to call them names and ignore them] I enter the room. With nothing particularly profound to say except...
Hi! How are you?